Tag: love

  • Monthly Mood Board – March 2026

    Hello, everyone! I know it’s been a while. December was definitely a busy month, but honestly, I feel like everyone says that. Between wrapping up work for the fall semester, finishing my own coursework for my bachelor’s program, and planning for the holidays, it was a lot. I had every intention of putting together a monthly mood board back in December, but… life happens.

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    Now it’s March 2026, so—Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Valentine’s Day, and everything in between! I have to admit, I haven’t been the biggest fan of winter. It really brought my mood down, and I wish it hadn’t. I know winter has its purpose, and I truly believe God created each season for a reason, so I’m trying to build a better relationship with it, but it’s not easy. I definitely miss the summer. The good news is that we’re officially in spring now, and I couldn’t be happier about that. Even though winter wasn’t my favorite, a lot of wonderful things have still happened, so I can’t complain too much.

    Based on the header image, I think you can guess where I’m headed with my next monthly mood update… I miss Disney so much! I wish I had more time and money to visit, but responsibilities have to come first. Even if I don’t always want to admit it, they do. Lately, I’ve also been missing summer. I’m so ready for blooming plants, green grass, sunshine, cookouts, even the bugs! I was born in the summer, so maybe it’s only natural that I love it as much as I do. I wonder if other summer babies feel the same way. It can’t just be me, right? Otherwise, no one would choose to live in the warmer parts of the country. I’d move in a heartbeat if I could, but my husband is firmly rooted in New England. It makes me a little sad, but maybe one day I’ll get the chance to soak up more sun and warmth.

    On a completely different note, I found out in late December that I’m going to be a mom. Right now, I’m taking this journey one day at a time. As my first pregnancy, it hasn’t been too overwhelming. I know many people have more intense experiences, so I wouldn’t describe mine as dramatic, but it is new, unfamiliar, and constantly changing. My body is shifting in ways I never expected, and it’s honestly fascinating. There are sensations I can’t fully explain unless you’ve been through it yourself. But if you have, you probably understand exactly what I mean. Overall, it’s an exciting new chapter, and I’m really looking forward to becoming a mom and seeing how this part of my life grows and evolves.

    If I had to choose a color to match my current mood, it would be sky blue. I’ve always loved that color, and lately I’ve been craving brighter, clearer skies instead of all this gray. There’s something so comforting about the warmth of the sun and the way a bright sky can instantly lift my mood. My husband, on the other hand, isn’t a fan of waking up to sunlight, but I absolutely love it. There’s something special about being gently woken by the sun’s warmth. It makes the start of the day feel peaceful and full of possibility. Personally, I’d rather wake up and embrace the whole day than sleep through it. For me, blocking out the sunlight makes it too easy to oversleep and slip into laziness, and that just doesn’t feel good. But of course, that’s just me; everyone has their own preferences, and some people truly enjoy sleeping in and waking up in the dark.

    Well, that’s all I have for today. I hope you’re all doing well, and I’d love for you to share your current moods too! I’m hoping to do this every month, along with other pieces I’m able to put out. Talk to you all soon! ✌🏼

    -JellyBean

  • I Never Know What to Say!

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    Starting conversations has always been hard for me. I never know what to say, and I get so anxious, stuck in my head, and drained. For a while, I called myself an “introverted extrovert,” but really, I do love engaging with people, I just let fear get in the way.

    There have been so many times I wanted to speak up, to encourage someone, or to simply join in, but I froze. I overthought my words, questioned my value, and let moments pass me by. Afterwards, I’d replay it all in my head and feel like I had missed my chance. It’s exhausting, carrying that constant battle between wanting connection and retreating into silence.

    But lately, I’ve been realizing something: fear has stolen enough from me. My passion has always been to help people and make a difference in their lives, but I can’t do that if I keep hiding. At some point, I had to ask myself, at what cost? At what cost do I keep my distance, when community is what my soul craves?

    So I’ve decided: I want to be a better communicator, someone who can listen deeply, encourage freely, and speak with authenticity. That means taking steps that scare me. Networking. Saying hello first. Showing up even when my instinct is to pull away. And most importantly, leaning on God for strength. I know He didn’t create me to live in fear, but to live boldly, with love.

    And so, this is my testimony: fear is outdated. It doesn’t belong in my story anymore. Community is vital. Communication is powerful. If you’ve ever felt like me, wanting connection but holding yourself back, I want you to know you’re not alone. It’s possible to grow. It’s possible to change.

    Break the barriers. Step out of hiding. Start connecting with others in a meaningful, impactful way. You never know who might need your words, your encouragement, or simply your presence.

    – JellyBean