
I can’t believe May is almost over. It feels like I just posted my April monthly mood board, which honestly sounds crazy to say. But anyway, happy May, everyone! If you’re from the New England area, I’m sure you experienced those few extremely hot days we had. I both loved and hated them at the same time. I love warm weather, but usually I have time to prepare for it. That heat came out of nowhere! Now the AC has been running, and somehow we’re back down to 60 degrees. Gotta love New England weather!
I’ve been so busy with school and work lately, and being pregnant while trying to keep up with my usual responsibilities has been so much harder than I expected. I’m tired all the time. I’ve never experienced this level of exhaustion for this long, and honestly, I still don’t know how to manage it. I remember hearing almost every pregnant woman say that at some point, they get this incredible burst of energy. Well, I’m here to say that definitely doesn’t happen for everyone. I’m not sure if it’s because I already do so much and was already drained before pregnancy, but it still really sucks to feel like almost all of my energy is gone. I even miss being able to aggressively clean my house. Now I grab a broom, and I’m already huffing and puffing just from taking it out of the closet. Sigh!
Regardless of how exhausted I’ve been, I’ve also been preparing for sweet baby boy to arrive, and I honestly have never been more excited. Even though I know I’ll probably be ten times more tired once he’s here, I’m still looking forward to waking up every day with a little human to care for and pour my attention into. I never really envisioned myself having children, so it’s such a strange but beautiful feeling to experience. Lately, though, I’ve just been leaning into it more and more. I love filling up his tiny closet, and seeing his little bassinet right beside my bed makes everything feel even more real and exciting. We also got his stroller, and sometimes I catch myself pushing it around the house, already imagining taking it out for a real walk, with a tiny baby inside. Safe to say, the more baby things I see, the more excited I get for his arrival.
I do have to admit, though, that I’m nervous about giving birth. I try my best to put my faith and trust in the Lord instead of giving in to fear and worry. I also remind myself that women have been doing this since the beginning of time, and that helps ground me a little. This is such an exciting and rewarding challenge, and I know I can get through it. Right now, I’m focusing on mentally preparing myself, praying whenever fear or anxiety starts creeping in, and trusting that my body will do what it was designed to do — to keep me safe during delivery and bring my baby boy into the world healthy and strong. So please send me all the kindness, prayers, and motivational words as I continue to process everything that is to come!
Well, that’s my monthly mood board update for you all! I’m looking forward to sharing where I’m at next month, too. My baby shower is coming up soon, and I’m definitely excited about that. I’m also really looking forward to slowing down and relaxing a bit more as the academic year winds down. Before I know it, I’ll be on maternity leave, and honestly, I can’t wait for that time away from work and school. I’m excited to fully focus on this new role as a mother and embrace everything that comes with it.
Until next time, everyone — I hope you all have an amazing rest of your May!
-JellyBean














